Friday, December 28, 2018
navy blue
Thursday, December 27, 2018
venomous
approach
From the very beginning you are constantly being told to compare yourself with others. It’s a disease, like a cancer that goes on destroying your very soul because each individual is unique, and comparison is never possible. Fuck what society tells you. Fuck conformity.
Tuesday, December 25, 2018
cold fiction
In order to be unattainable
you must first know
who the fuck you are.
Monday, December 24, 2018
taupe
soft shoes left at the door. the flicker of a lightbulb at midnight. coffee stains. pictures hung with pins on the wall, slowly becoming dusty, but they’ve always been there. a ticking watch. the musty smell of morning after a night of rain, and it may rain again, but the melancholy is too beautiful to wish away. they know how to let the rain come, and to love it when it does--to watch the light make patterns through the smudges on the windowpanes.
Thursday, December 20, 2018
the senses
If you want to seduce my heart,
start with the eyes.
If you can’t get me to look at you,
move me with your words.
If I don’t listen, invite me to dance.
Friday, December 14, 2018
distinct contrast
He found me ravaged,
and gently tucked me
back into place.
That’s just how he is.
Unlike thieves who steal,
he saviors...
Thursday, December 6, 2018
Spoonful of honey
My goal in life is to occupy an abandoned castle in the European countryside, keep a giant rose garden, only wear long flowing dresses, and become local folklore.
Sunday, December 2, 2018
Thursday, November 29, 2018
Tuesday, November 27, 2018
Monday, November 26, 2018
darkness inside
that have a darkness inside of them,
a darkness that is both terrifying
and beautiful....
i want to touch their souls.
and have it slide though
my fingers like mud.
scoop it into my palms like rain.
i want to feel what they have felt.
i want to know why darkness clings to them
like a shadow they cannot shake
and i want to know why i am drawn
to these shadows more often than
the soft glowing souls that
flicker around me like fireflies.
i'd like to know what someone feels
when they dive into my soul....
Sunday, November 25, 2018
Covered
Love blinds you. It’s crazy because you don’t even realize it. You fall in love with someone and everything they do is beautiful. They’re absolutely perfect in your eyes. They could hurt you so many times and you’ll still find yourself making excuses for them. Love makes fools out of all of us.
Sunday, November 4, 2018
beneath
Faking smiles is easy,
like slipping on jewelry.
I know what you want
to hear from me...
I free pretty lies
from behind my teeth.
Painting has always
come naturally.
My aura is brushed
in shades of purity,
a societal masterpiece.
But if you could see
what lies underneath,
I promise you’d never approach me...
Friday, November 2, 2018
spilled thoughts
The things I find
most beautiful
about a person
are almost never physical.
Thursday, November 1, 2018
Monday, October 8, 2018
smokescreen
i remember way too many
small details about people,
so i have to act dumb sometimes,
so i don’t freak them out
Tuesday, October 2, 2018
vitreous
When men look at her, they are not thinking of dinner and a movie. They are not thinking roses and a moonlit stroll on the beach. They are envisioning their hands tightening ropes around her wrists, biting her neck while taking in the fragrance of her hair just before ripping her clothes off and fucking her mercilessly.
Saturday, September 8, 2018
Visionary
He made love to her on paper.
They spilled ink like passion
across the sheets.
He caressed her curves
in every love letter.
He kissed up and down her thighs
in short sentences and prose.
He tasted all her innocence,
without a spoken word.
He bit her lip and pulled her hair
in between the lines.
He made her arch her back and scream,
and it only took a pen....
Friday, September 7, 2018
Cultivated
as he runs his tongue
up her neck...
Beads of sweat cover
his wanting body.
His lips marking what is his
for the night.
“Baby, spread your legs and let me show you how badly I want you to come here,” he breathes into her ear. “Take my fingers into your mouth, and let me feel you from the inside while your body is pressed against mine.”
The things I want to do to you.
“Let’s see how long you can handle my hand around your neck. Lose your breath and I will breathe it back into you between your thighs. I have a way like God, and baby you are begging me to destroy you.”
“Don’t be gentle.” she whispers as he pins her down on the bed.
“Why would I, darling?” he says while biting her lip.
Goddammit.
“Watch how easily I flip you over and hold your head down. Can you feel how wet you are for me? Can you feel me deep inside of you? Your body is a soundtrack, and I am ready to make it scream and whimper my name. Poetry will spill from your mouth, as you write love letters with your nails down my back. You body holds the secrets inside , and it will tell all when my teeth are running along your skin. But baby, when I sink myself inside of you and my tongue is dancing along that sacred place, you will realize why you write poetry. The way I fuck you will have you spilling our secrets to people you have never met...”
undelivered
Upon a blank page,
she wrote the depths of her soul,
secrets of heart,
and most honest words.
Adding finishing touches,
dotting i’s and crossing t’s...
it was then placed into an envelope, stamped and addressed,
“To: the man I never got to love.”
Wednesday, September 5, 2018
This space
Lay here with me, I’ll pour you a glass of Bourbon. We can talk about the stars, the moon, the world and all of it’s mishap. Stretch across this king size mattress naked listening to the rain fall outside. You can watch me scribble in this pad, and I’ll look up every once in awhile with these lazy brown eyes, and smile at you. Because this is beautiful, this simplicity is pure...
Monday, September 3, 2018
dependence
Darling,
how do you ignore an addiction which knows your name and has tasted your soul in such a sinfully intimate way?
Thursday, August 30, 2018
Thursday, August 23, 2018
- note to self
Be loyal to your present moment,
it influences your future.
Every choice you make is vital...
Sunday, August 19, 2018
small things
of the night sky,
of thunderstorms,
the world coming alive at sunrise.
I hope I never get tired
of watching cream make galaxies in my coffee
of hope in strangers eyes,
the power of a simple laugh.
This world is ugly.
And I hope I never grow to be a human
who can no longer see the small beautiful things.
Saturday, August 18, 2018
Dream #451
Tuesday, August 14, 2018
Monday, August 13, 2018
sulfuric acid
The type that releases sweet words
Sunday, August 12, 2018
Jurisdiction
on my shoulder,
yet I’m the one
who whispers orders
refusing to wipe the blood
from it’s teeth
no matter how much
it begs me to do so...
Saturday, August 11, 2018
Interference
like rain and wash
over your skin.
noun, verb and adjective
to sink deep into your flesh,
leaving you wanting more.
so that each sentence
can penetrate your mind,
and fuck you even better
than before.
Friday, August 10, 2018
Authorization
for any competition
with anybody.
You yourself,
as you are,
are perfectly good.
Accept yourself.
Thursday, August 9, 2018
Wednesday, August 8, 2018
Sunday, August 5, 2018
Obligations
When she makes
your demons moan,
then she's the one,
and it doesn't matter
how innocent her eyes look...
She's the only one they need.
Thursday, August 2, 2018
Shadows
Even stars have their shadows. Some say if you hold your head up to the stars, you’ll feel the taste of their dark side. It starts of bitter, but slowly embraces your mouth and tongue in sweetness so pure, you’ll want more.
But the stars only show their dark sides to a chosen few. A swirl of rich, deep darkness that drips from midnight sky and melts into tongue and earth.
When you wake up in the morning feeling stardust in your mouth, you’ll know in your dreams how the shadows of starlight taste.
Wednesday, August 1, 2018
focal point
I love people who
have minds like libraries,
and books in their soul.
the kind of people who
have pages within them
that must be flipped slowly,
and read delicately,
to discover the magic
that exists in their bones.
Monday, July 30, 2018
Sunday, July 29, 2018
extemporize
Life is a play
without a script
or a a director.
In the end,
it doesn’t matter
if the act was
good or bad,
because everything was
based in constant plan B
and indistinct improvisation.
Sunday, July 22, 2018
Thursday, July 19, 2018
Tuesday, July 17, 2018
sustainable
“You’re beautiful.” he whispered.
“Stop."
“Stop what?” he asked.
“Saying I’m beautiful.”
“Why? it’s the truth..”
“It’s not. You don’t see the real me. The me at the end of the day, tired and worn. You don’t see me trying to find the perfect outfit. You don’t see me in the mirror, so how dare you say I’m beautiful .”
He shook his head, almost laughing.
“You don’t get it do you? You have no fucking idea what you look like. Yeah you’re right, I don’t see you the way you see you, but you also don’t see the way I see you. You don’t see how you laugh, or the way you tell a story, you don’t see the way your eyes light up when you talk about all the things you love. You don’t see yourself wrapped in my arms, or the way you look when you wake up. But I do, and that’s why I have every right to call you beautiful.”
Saturday, July 14, 2018
confessions
As they laid under the white sheets of his bed, he said, “I am not jealous. I am very possessive of whatever I own and I will fight to keep it that way. So be very careful of who you allow to kiss your beautiful soul princess.”
Friday, July 13, 2018
Parallel
Wednesday, July 11, 2018
Tuesday, July 10, 2018
the summary
The conversation
between your fingers
and someone else’s skin,
is the most important
discussion you can ever have.
Friday, July 6, 2018
Thursday, July 5, 2018
Actuality
She was fierce,
She was strong,
She was not simple.
She was crazy,
and sometimes...
she barely slept.
She always had something to say.
She had flaws and that was ok.
And when she was down,
she got right back up.
She was a beast in her own way,
but one idea described her best...
She was unstoppable and she took
anything she wanted with a smile.
Friday, June 29, 2018
deep thoughts #041
Act my age?
What the fuck is that, “act my age?”
What do I care how old I am?
The Ocean is old as fuck....
It will still drown your ass with vigor.
Contrastive
How could your lips be poison
and antidote at the same time?
Tuesday, June 26, 2018
appreciation
My sins know you very well darling,
and they think you're heavenly...
Calculations
Darling,
your worst mistake
was licking your lips.
-I wanted to bite them
the moment you did.
Your best mistake
was talking to me
about chemistry.
Intense sexual chemistry.
-I wanted to fuck you
right that minute...
Smart is the new sexy.
My worst mistake
wasn’t undressing you,
-though I did undress you.
It was taking off not just your clothes,
but the facade you always wore.
My worst mistake
wasn’t kissing marks
on parts of your body
that no one sees,
but loving your naked body,
and your naked soul.
We are a notorious pair of sinners.
before we burn in hell,
let’s turn this bed into ashes.
We won’t plead for heaven,
—paradise is already ours.
We won’t plead for mercy.
We won’t plead for absolution.
We won’t plead for innocence.
We know what we are doing...
Monday, June 25, 2018
highly expressive
What perfect destruction,” he thought. “How blissfully, painfully poetic we are...”
Saturday, June 23, 2018
proliferation
with every person
you meet in this lifetime,
there is a specific reason
why your paths crossed.
they will either love you,
hate you, lead you, grow you,
influence you, hurt you...
and so on.
it’s all for a purpose.
every.
single.
person.
Friday, June 22, 2018
Thursday, June 21, 2018
subsisting
Things are always changing drastically in our lives, that sometimes it feels so good to be lost. We are forced to walk so many fucking lines throughout this life- that make absolutely no sense- so it feels good to get banged up and bruised, and totally disoriented to the point of impulsive panic. We smile and ache for that awakening. Thats the only way we grow.
Sometimes, setting yourself on fire is the only way to feel alive...
Tuesday, June 19, 2018
Sunday, June 17, 2018
delectable
Your demons
taste sweeter
than mine,
and I will lick
every single one
of them off my lips.
Saturday, June 16, 2018
Tuesday, June 12, 2018
silent musings
I’ll gently
fuck your mind
with a whisper
and uncover
all of your dirty
little secrets
with a kiss.
Together,
we will explore
all of your
dark fantasies
leaving nothing
to the imagination.
You have become
my living paradise..
Sunday, June 10, 2018
generated power
“Come closer” he says, “I won’t bite you...yet.” As I try to look away, he gently slides his hand around my throat and pulls me in close to him. I can feel the warmth of his breath as he whispers into my ear. “One taste, and I promise to control myself, but you are unlike any addiction I have ever encountered,” His grasp tightens. “You run through my veins like liquid fire, and I want to overdose on the special talents that you have to offer. You wouldn’t dare deny me what I deserve, would you?”
Friday, June 8, 2018
Wednesday, May 30, 2018
achromatic
Sometimes people come into
your life and all you can do
is appreciate them
while they’re there,
and try not to get attached to
the way they bring
light into your life,
and try not to miss
them when they are away.
Sunday, May 27, 2018
convention
There is nothing
so tempting
as the forbidden,
and nothing
more desirable
than the unattainable.
Saturday, May 26, 2018
contentment
Words are my salvation.
And yet, I find myself
gravitating towards silence.
I love people who speak to me
with the corners of their eyes,
the curve of their lips.
I love subtlety.
It is an art, an elegance,
a way of life.
Tuesday, May 22, 2018
inveiglement
Darling,
physical attraction
is quite beautiful...
But it is the art of seduction
that is my weakness.
The power of authority,
of knowledge,
of body language.
Tease me with your intellect,
torture me with your words,
and fuck me with your mind.
Monday, May 21, 2018
semblance
Sunday, May 20, 2018
Saturday, May 19, 2018
Friday, May 18, 2018
Energy
Your skin brushed mine,
and galaxies collided.
Iron, aluminum, helium, hydrogen.
All glowing around us...
Shimmering on my fingertips.
Glittering on your lips.
I pulled your head down,
and sang the truth into your heart.
You poured me all over your bed,
and undid my entire soul.
Sunday, April 29, 2018
Saturday, April 28, 2018
your heart
I won’t ask the universe of you,
just a little corner in your heart
where I can lay my head
when this world tires me.
Thursday, April 26, 2018
gravitation
I want to know you...
whether you’re afraid
of sharks
or spiders,
death or love.
I want to know
if it’s grammatical errors
that drive you crazy
or the people correcting them,
if you’re more comfortable
shaking sand out of your hair
or snow,
if you prefer coffee or tea,
bars or board game nights.
I want to know which of your friends
you’ve cried in front of,
if you’ve ever laughed chocolate milk
out of your nose,
or kissed someone
you weren’t supposed to.
I want to know you.
The you
beneath the layer of
small talk,
always kept shined
and smudgeless...
I’m just hoping one day you’ll invite me in.
the challenge
I’d like to think that
I’m too old for enemies...
that the only hate
left in my heart
is a small smudge of gray.
But some days,
I can feel the pettiness
climbing back up my spine,
sinking its talons into
my shoulder blades
as it leans down
and whispers in my ear:
don’t you want to win?
Wednesday, March 28, 2018
Night Thoughts #098
To have someone
understand your mind
is a different kind
of intimacy.
Wednesday, March 7, 2018
social norm
when it’s more socially acceptable
for a child to be on amphetamines,
than it is for an adult to smoke pot.
the look
when he looks at you
from across a crowded room
filled spaces while conversing.
communicating between a sea of faces,
a glance turned into a gaze
fixed upon you,
noise and chatter fade away...
pulled in, you’re drawn to him.
unable to shield his eyes,
he claims you with
his body language.
disclosing, exposing,
undressing your mind...
mind of an introvert
There are times
when I crave space
and I don’t contact anyone.
People who don’t know me
take it personally.
So do I narrate my feelings
to each and every one,
do I become what people expect of me,
or do I be me?
I think I’m going to be me.
rapacity
even though we are on the same planet,
live under the same stars,
wake up to the same sun
and the sleep to the same moon.
We are selfish and greedy human beings,
always wanting more,
and having that need
to constantly be superior than others.
We often forget that we are little and small
in comparison to the rest of this universe...
Tuesday, March 6, 2018
art of entrapment
Tuesday, January 9, 2018
before we kiss
I am the poison
that will burn your tongue,
but you’ll keep asking for more,
because I am forbidden.
I am all the warnings and signs
they tell you to stay away from,
but then again...
you have always liked danger,
you have always liked rules
-because you can break them.
So you keep coming back
‘just one more time’
‘one more taste’
‘one more sigh’
I promise darling,
you will fall for me.
so hard that it will break your knees..
You laugh it off,
but you’re running in circles
too hungry the words
that I feed you.
So now that I have told you,
how the future is written,
let me ask this again...
Do you still want to kiss me?
writers
will only look at you in words.
fancy words,
full of fancy nouns and fancy verbs,
and gaze at you longingly in adjectives.
They will wrap your body
and keep it warm in never ending sentences,
and undress you with just the right punctuation.
and you will never be able to read them
like the way they can break open your spine
and read you like you’re their favorite book.
And when they are done,
they will leave you
in a state of ellipsis
(speechless, wanting more, begging for more,
waiting, staying for the rest,
hoping for a story that never ends.)
inscrutable
who are dangerous for my heart,
people who fuck with my head,
people who make me question
everything I think I know.
Being with them is exhilarating
and things are never boring.
The wicked and strange
are enticing and alluring,
I am aware their darkness
can swallow me whole.
Monday, January 8, 2018
Sunday, January 7, 2018
comfort and torment
sometimes your scent
catches me
on a day it shouldn’t
in a place it shouldn't
at a time it shouldn’t
vibes
I fall in love with personality...
their words,
their behavior,
the lust in their eyes.
I would say
it is completely possible,
to fall in love with someone
without having physical contact
because it is a pure,
raw, love for them,
who they are
and what they’re about.
Perhaps,
it’s the best way
to fall in love.
You fall in love
with the sight
of their soul
disproportionate
Maybe I don’t like people
as much as the rest
of the world seems to,
but occasionally,
people will pleasantly surprise me
and I’ll fall in love with them,
so go figure.
Saturday, January 6, 2018
the invitation
then you exist somewhere
between the lines
of my spilled ink.
Which space is yours..
Well, that I can’t say.
For I lay the words,
but they are for you to convey...
the author
He wrote love poems
inside of me
with his fingers.
Our story began
with my scream,
and ended with
my soul on his lips.
Thursday, January 4, 2018
the process
As a writer,
I provide the words,
yet you choose
what they
will mean to you
Wednesday, January 3, 2018
scavengers
We have been taught shame.
We cannot afford sustainable bread,
while companies cut birthday cakes
from food stamps.
Let them eat their fingers,
or their pride,
—anything but to look up
and become savage like the
country they were born in.
Tuesday, January 2, 2018
satisfaction
foggy skies
Sailing on a sea of lies,
their opinions sink and rise,
He’s a Marionette by puppeteer
s,
guided by the winds of fear.